HAVE I A HITCH IN MY GET-ALONG?

As usual, this is a copy of a 2006 item in our journal for the kids.  But, it fits for me today. From
Heb. 12:29, from THE MESSAGE.  "God is not an indifferent bystander.  God is actively cleaning house, torching all that needs to burn and He won't quit until it's a cleansed.  God is Fire!"


God is surely not indifferent in my life; rather, I make God's clean-up job  in me difficult, to say the least.  I keep hoping this "old nag" can learn to take God's gentle lead, but I keep repeating the same mistakes.  I seem to feel burrs under the saddle frequently and I get a bit unpleasant!  But, it is encouraging to me to believe that God is not indifferent to my mistakes, even if it means God is unpleased.  God doesn't just sit on a fence-rail and watch. God is actively working within me.  I, on the other hand, fear that I don't always listen.  Am I such a wild one, unteachable, one impossible to break, fearful of being controlled, incorrigible by nature?  Will I never be tamed? 


"Oh, God!  I so want to be gentled and able to race ahead on your command.  Don't forsake me, Holy Spirit, even if I try to throw you off.  You are my hope in life!  Amen."


Imagining myself as an old grey mare isn't as hard today as it was ten or so years ago, yet the mare hasn't changed that much in her wildness. God has to work especially hard with me, I'm afraid.  Or maybe it saddens me more and more now when I forget to call on God and find myself back in the pasture for awhile.  He is still my hope in Life, and my precious Leader.


I hope He is your Leader, too,  and the two of you are having a great ride!
Jo IMN